Friday, May 20, 2011

I'm Just Not That Into You

Dear Blog,
I am writing to you only out of love but the truth must be told. Im just not that into you. I wish our time together was more enjoyable but sadly it is not. Although I lothe you... I will NOT quit on you. For better or worse, til death do us part. Just so you know, I am only in it for the children. I can only hope and pray that we can mend our relationship but I am just not happy with you.


It is true! I get nauseated when I think about this darn blog! But in some sick and torturous way... It somehow helps. Honesty. I can be honest and I can be real. I just hate be vulnerable and weak and that is just how this blog makes me feel. Ugh! I spit on you, blog! OK now let's hug and make up.

Enough of that... It's been a crazy (normal) week! Appointments or school stuff ALL week and the dryer broke then the fridge quit cooling. At one point yesterday the repair man was here and I stepped outside screamed to the top of my lungs, pulled a few chunkes of hair out then returned feeling much better. Be honest, you've been there too!

On a happy thought! Abram was accepted into Hand in Hand Early Learning Center! Not sure how we will pay for it (it's almost as much as our mortgage every month) so I applied for a scholarship. Special kids are especially expensive! But this school is THE best for kids with special needs. They also have typical kids as well, which I'm all about some inclusion. He will love it! I am so glad that Abram does SO well in a classroom setting, he thrives in it!

Well, I must wrap up since I have 3 minutes until the kiddos get up. Now let's hope the new milk in the fridge is cold instead of warm like yesterday morning.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

One of THOSE Moms

A few attributes of One of THOSE Moms:
- Always needing a girls night out...or majarita.
- Desperate for adult conversation, even willing to talk to complete strangers.
- Can never get enough alone time or sleep.
- Constantly talking about needing a vacation.
- Her clothes don't fit or they have holes in them (but the kids look good).
- Buying a sweet tea at ChickfilA not because you really want or NEED it, only because you asked and it was given to you...for $1.67. And you don't have to share it!

Yep, that's me! I have turned into ONE OF THOSE MOMS! I swore it would never happen but life has gotten the best of me... For now at least. I find it funny that I used to think "what's the big deal with all these moms who hate being a mom?". I only thought that when I had 1 child. And I must say, Asher was the best first child! So compliant, loving, funny and an absolute joy to be around! I often wonder "are my children a joy? Or a burden?" I so badly want them to be a joy and a delight to be around. But sadly, they just aren't....sometimes! Ha! I do believe that your children are a direct reflection of you, and that freaks me OUT! I don't always like what I see in me and in my kids! But I know that if I do my best HE will do the rest! (and I don't think that is scripture, I just keep telling myself that). In the meantime I am going to keep running the race! And at the end I might not be first but at least I did my best!