Dear Blog,
I am writing to you only out of love but the truth must be told. Im just not that into you. I wish our time together was more enjoyable but sadly it is not. Although I lothe you... I will NOT quit on you. For better or worse, til death do us part. Just so you know, I am only in it for the children. I can only hope and pray that we can mend our relationship but I am just not happy with you.
Sincerely,
Laurie
It is true! I get nauseated when I think about this darn blog! But in some sick and torturous way... It somehow helps. Honesty. I can be honest and I can be real. I just hate be vulnerable and weak and that is just how this blog makes me feel. Ugh! I spit on you, blog! OK now let's hug and make up.
Enough of that... It's been a crazy (normal) week! Appointments or school stuff ALL week and the dryer broke then the fridge quit cooling. At one point yesterday the repair man was here and I stepped outside screamed to the top of my lungs, pulled a few chunkes of hair out then returned feeling much better. Be honest, you've been there too!
On a happy thought! Abram was accepted into Hand in Hand Early Learning Center! Not sure how we will pay for it (it's almost as much as our mortgage every month) so I applied for a scholarship. Special kids are especially expensive! But this school is THE best for kids with special needs. They also have typical kids as well, which I'm all about some inclusion. He will love it! I am so glad that Abram does SO well in a classroom setting, he thrives in it!
Well, I must wrap up since I have 3 minutes until the kiddos get up. Now let's hope the new milk in the fridge is cold instead of warm like yesterday morning.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
One of THOSE Moms
A few attributes of One of THOSE Moms:
- Always needing a girls night out...or majarita.
- Desperate for adult conversation, even willing to talk to complete strangers.
- Can never get enough alone time or sleep.
- Constantly talking about needing a vacation.
- Her clothes don't fit or they have holes in them (but the kids look good).
- Buying a sweet tea at ChickfilA not because you really want or NEED it, only because you asked and it was given to you...for $1.67. And you don't have to share it!
Yep, that's me! I have turned into ONE OF THOSE MOMS! I swore it would never happen but life has gotten the best of me... For now at least. I find it funny that I used to think "what's the big deal with all these moms who hate being a mom?". I only thought that when I had 1 child. And I must say, Asher was the best first child! So compliant, loving, funny and an absolute joy to be around! I often wonder "are my children a joy? Or a burden?" I so badly want them to be a joy and a delight to be around. But sadly, they just aren't....sometimes! Ha! I do believe that your children are a direct reflection of you, and that freaks me OUT! I don't always like what I see in me and in my kids! But I know that if I do my best HE will do the rest! (and I don't think that is scripture, I just keep telling myself that). In the meantime I am going to keep running the race! And at the end I might not be first but at least I did my best!
- Always needing a girls night out...or majarita.
- Desperate for adult conversation, even willing to talk to complete strangers.
- Can never get enough alone time or sleep.
- Constantly talking about needing a vacation.
- Her clothes don't fit or they have holes in them (but the kids look good).
- Buying a sweet tea at ChickfilA not because you really want or NEED it, only because you asked and it was given to you...for $1.67. And you don't have to share it!
Yep, that's me! I have turned into ONE OF THOSE MOMS! I swore it would never happen but life has gotten the best of me... For now at least. I find it funny that I used to think "what's the big deal with all these moms who hate being a mom?". I only thought that when I had 1 child. And I must say, Asher was the best first child! So compliant, loving, funny and an absolute joy to be around! I often wonder "are my children a joy? Or a burden?" I so badly want them to be a joy and a delight to be around. But sadly, they just aren't....sometimes! Ha! I do believe that your children are a direct reflection of you, and that freaks me OUT! I don't always like what I see in me and in my kids! But I know that if I do my best HE will do the rest! (and I don't think that is scripture, I just keep telling myself that). In the meantime I am going to keep running the race! And at the end I might not be first but at least I did my best!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Road to Rhizotomy
What is Rhizotomy?
A rhizotomy is a neurosurgical procedure that selectively severs problematic nerve roots in the spinal cord, most often to relieve the symptoms of neuromuscular conditions such as spastic diplegia and other forms of spastic cerebral palsy. ...
Yeppers! This is the path we are on! A long, bumpy, scary and faith-building path. It began in February, at Spasticity Clinic with several doctors and therapists. We were (in a nut shell) told that if Abram didn't have Rhizotomy (scheduled for November 7th) that he wouldn't walk. Now you might be thinking, "but he has a walker and i have seen him walk?!" Well, yes he does walk just not very good, and the likelihood of him struggling to walk everyday on his own is not promising. He would probably end up just using a wheelchair. Abram is entirely TOO bright to be stuck in a wheel chair. He thinks, acts and talks like a 3 year old! It's just his body that doesn't work like typical kids.
SO, our prayers for this year are 1) God will return before November 7th or 2) We would just wake up one morning and Abram is completely healed!!! BUT, if neither of those happen God will still get all the glory! And the Bible says that in the twinkling of an eye we will all be whole! What a great sight it will be, to see Abram RUNNING into his Saviors arms! I hold tightly to this promise, some days it is what gets me through. We have a great God , who has taken care of us this far and I am sure he will be holding my sweet angel on November 7th as doctors open up his spine and sever nerves permanently.
Our Prayer needs for "before Surgery" are:
-Abram would consistently get physically stronger.
-Abram's MRI would be fine for surgery.
-Abram's hips would not get any tighter (we are working on this).
-Abram will stand longer and walk faster.
-That United HealthCare would approve Abram to have more than just 20 PT visits a year.
Our Prayer needs for "after surgery" are:
- His Mother wont lose it! HA!
-Abram will heal quickly
-Abram will respond to Physical Therapy wonderfully! (which will be twice a day for several weeks!!!)
A rhizotomy is a neurosurgical procedure that selectively severs problematic nerve roots in the spinal cord, most often to relieve the symptoms of neuromuscular conditions such as spastic diplegia and other forms of spastic cerebral palsy. ...
Yeppers! This is the path we are on! A long, bumpy, scary and faith-building path. It began in February, at Spasticity Clinic with several doctors and therapists. We were (in a nut shell) told that if Abram didn't have Rhizotomy (scheduled for November 7th) that he wouldn't walk. Now you might be thinking, "but he has a walker and i have seen him walk?!" Well, yes he does walk just not very good, and the likelihood of him struggling to walk everyday on his own is not promising. He would probably end up just using a wheelchair. Abram is entirely TOO bright to be stuck in a wheel chair. He thinks, acts and talks like a 3 year old! It's just his body that doesn't work like typical kids.
SO, our prayers for this year are 1) God will return before November 7th or 2) We would just wake up one morning and Abram is completely healed!!! BUT, if neither of those happen God will still get all the glory! And the Bible says that in the twinkling of an eye we will all be whole! What a great sight it will be, to see Abram RUNNING into his Saviors arms! I hold tightly to this promise, some days it is what gets me through. We have a great God , who has taken care of us this far and I am sure he will be holding my sweet angel on November 7th as doctors open up his spine and sever nerves permanently.
Our Prayer needs for "before Surgery" are:
-Abram would consistently get physically stronger.
-Abram's MRI would be fine for surgery.
-Abram's hips would not get any tighter (we are working on this).
-Abram will stand longer and walk faster.
-That United HealthCare would approve Abram to have more than just 20 PT visits a year.
Our Prayer needs for "after surgery" are:
- His Mother wont lose it! HA!
-Abram will heal quickly
-Abram will respond to Physical Therapy wonderfully! (which will be twice a day for several weeks!!!)
Thursday, March 10, 2011
I'm Still Here
WOW, OK, so I am stopping to take a deep breathe and vent a little (honestly it's more like whining). First- I LOVE my Sequoia and I don't think I ever want any other SUV. Of course an updated version in about 3 years would be nice. But, I don't want to spend all week in my car!!! Let me explain, Abram just started a 4-day a week class at The Bell Center. Which is GREAT! Right? A resounding YES! But that means a 30 minute drive there and back 8 times a week! Well, now that I spell that out it doesn't sound so bad. OK, I really am just whining! You know you are in the car entirely too much when you know ALL of the answers to Mickey's questions and you haven't even seen the video.
I'm done.
I'm done.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
it's all good in the hood...
this has to be a quick blog but at least its something! "it's all good in the hood" came from an ET shirt that asher has, it cracks me up EVERY TIME he wears it! things have been ca-ray-zzy since i last blogged. when i looked at this weeks calendar i really thought "good, a down week", boy was i wrong!
so, today when we got back from the bell center i put the boys down for their nap and i thought i would get outside and walk/run a bit. it felt great! the feeling of being FREE, no diapers, no mess, no laundry! as i searched for just the right music on my ipod, i chose hillsong united -to the ends of the earth. track 3 - FREE- came on, and it was so fitting. it says,
"would you believe me if i said that God can make miracles happen today?" "would you believe me if i said that you don't have to wait for the answers before you step out in faith?" " would you believe me if i said nothing is ever impossible for God?"
i have heard this song a million times but today was different. today it wasn't just a song, it was from God himself. He was right beside me, listening to all my fears and doubts. even though we might have to make some very hard decisions, HE will be with us. it's all good in the hood.... for now
so, today when we got back from the bell center i put the boys down for their nap and i thought i would get outside and walk/run a bit. it felt great! the feeling of being FREE, no diapers, no mess, no laundry! as i searched for just the right music on my ipod, i chose hillsong united -to the ends of the earth. track 3 - FREE- came on, and it was so fitting. it says,
"would you believe me if i said that God can make miracles happen today?" "would you believe me if i said that you don't have to wait for the answers before you step out in faith?" " would you believe me if i said nothing is ever impossible for God?"
i have heard this song a million times but today was different. today it wasn't just a song, it was from God himself. He was right beside me, listening to all my fears and doubts. even though we might have to make some very hard decisions, HE will be with us. it's all good in the hood.... for now
Saturday, February 12, 2011
fix wheels
so, i posted this picture of Abram in his walker so you could get a visual. that is not actually his walker but it is very similar to the one he has now. if you don't know already Abram has cerebral palsy and needs a walker and AFO's (ankle and foot orthotics) to walk. we have to start upping the amount of time in his walker, so today we walked for about an hour total. i also took the wheel lock off so now his wheels swivel. when Abram is in the walker i normally have to find some sort of motivation to get him to walk. tonight, Elmo had crashed in the hallway and needed rescuing and he was on it, until getting sidetracked and saying over and over "momma fix wheels stuck." even though he has such a hard time walking, crawling, eating and talking he still has a smile on his face. for a kid who should be mad! he isn't. he amazes me daily with new words like "that's better", which he told Dr. Law on Thursday after Dr. Law removed his AFO's. life just isn't fair but this is what we were given and in the end GOD will get ALL the glory.
Amen
Friday, February 11, 2011
Used Therapy
since yesterday was a little intense (and by a little i mean a LOT) i thought today would be a good day for some retail therapy! (and when i say retail, i really mean consigned/used, YEAH that's right Duggar style!) so i met Brandy and Maddie crumlyfamily.blogspot.com at a Whale of a Sale to dig around. we found several good items, but most importantly Maddie found a pink tutu to add to her collection. Abram found a "special prize" since he didn't get one yesterday, and Asa found a jar of toy cookies that you count. i cant wait to hit up a few more consignment sales before spring hits! then we hit up Costco and Chickfila and by the time i got home Abram had a nice poopy all over his lower half. Now they are all sleeping and hopefully Doug and i will get to watch the social network.
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